To Know of What's Become

She had everything then a swift crushing blow

Instability strikes down the most innocent

A punch in the gut of childhood

So she came here

With a mother

And bitterness

So young

So harmed

I planned it for a week

It took all I could take

Exploding was an option

But I took the moment

In the checkerboard envelop

I placed all my feelings

And handed it over

To love

And sacrifice

An older sister or wisdom

A child held back

Hopeless friends, dummies to her plan

She held me

But was in my arms

We were the portrait of dysfunctional

And I love her

Always, I wanted her more

And always she got me

Karma takes and gives

Gave me revenge

Gave me breath, and will take my friends

My problems

My life.

In the moment of sweet surrender

It’s her lips that I remember

The crime of life

Meets our strife

And as we fall so hopeless beings

I feel I’m always dreaming

To wake with her beside me

And to be back in the sands

The winds whipping hair

And the world at my command

Acceptance, wanted

Oblivion, satisfied

A black hole of a heart, plugged with a cork kiss.

September 6,2007