My College Postcard

Here’s my college’s postcard
on a bright November day
trees grasping their final leaves
so as not to be naked in the winter months
the blinding reflection from off the ponds
and the flickering winds that cannot move the steeple
of the red-bricked chapel where
the stained glass is of the multi-talented art students
where the birds will always soar nearby
and their charming call fills the ears
along with the hourly bells
here’s my college’s postcard
with the faces of so many students
the faces of the whole world
uniting here


Here’s my college postcard
where the liberal arts kids know what they want to study
where the nursing major cuts himself
where I could study abroad, for a nominal fee
or where my roommate could not speak English
here’s my college postcard
where the winds off the man-made ponds burn my face
where my ocean view is blocked by power-lines
where I share a washing machine and dryer with 30 others
where avoiding bird shit becomes a way of life
where I get used to looking at the ground
instead of hearing the squawks of seagulls
where people learn they can be promiscuous
and where I have learned that my college post card
looks very different than what they advertise.

November 11, 2010

Kids

All the people that you meet

They are characters within

And all the smiles you fail to see

So begins the grin

Those awkward kids you made fun of

They are real people now

That never grow up or out or old

They end up unannounced

And the little kids they used to be

When the mind fit in the mold

Got squished and wrapped and strangled

Losing all control

And this chaos still surrounds us

Like moving far away

Where home is the place to go back to

At the end of every day

And the struggle will continue

As we grow up and out and old

The flowers will be blooming

As the victories unfold

And as we march with suns held high

And moon within arms reach

I uncover the wolves eyes

And it’s heart begins to beat.

April 9, 2009

To Know of What's Become

She had everything then a swift crushing blow

Instability strikes down the most innocent

A punch in the gut of childhood

So she came here

With a mother

And bitterness

So young

So harmed

I planned it for a week

It took all I could take

Exploding was an option

But I took the moment

In the checkerboard envelop

I placed all my feelings

And handed it over

To love

And sacrifice

An older sister or wisdom

A child held back

Hopeless friends, dummies to her plan

She held me

But was in my arms

We were the portrait of dysfunctional

And I love her

Always, I wanted her more

And always she got me

Karma takes and gives

Gave me revenge

Gave me breath, and will take my friends

My problems

My life.

In the moment of sweet surrender

It’s her lips that I remember

The crime of life

Meets our strife

And as we fall so hopeless beings

I feel I’m always dreaming

To wake with her beside me

And to be back in the sands

The winds whipping hair

And the world at my command

Acceptance, wanted

Oblivion, satisfied

A black hole of a heart, plugged with a cork kiss.

September 6,2007

Liars

Go around all the time

At your own pace

When you want something

And you cry about it

Making false promises

Killing the ones around you

You should know what a weed does

Taking away life from the ones who need it

Sucking all the nutrients from a family

You get in the way

To collect your cards

That give you false hopes

Just like the shards

Of the glass you broke

When you got mad

And lost control

Go to the room sobbing again

I should have hit you harder then

You didn’t make sense in all hopes

When your sucky dreams were crushed

After I tied them in ropes

August 7, 2007

Just the Wave

Its so clear that im swept back under

As the cloud releasing thunder

The storm that flickers in your eyes

Another honorable disguise

Watch from the shore

Planted in the grains

So much broken glass

Soft as your hair

Can you feel the eyes

Stare back

The reflection of your soul

A single towel left

The tide strolls back in

And there you are

Still staring up

August 7,2007

Ocean Waves

We sat there on the life guard’s stand

With the waves

The three of us

Captivated

One was looking back

Towards the lights of town

Toward her house

And the voices

Anything to escape her family

The other stared up

Her mind amongst the stars

Anything to escape her life

Her eyes sparkled with reflection of nothingness

Of the dust and ice

Of the giant formations made by so little

Her heart and eyes traveled hard to get there

The emptiness was with her

I looked out at the waves

Rushing back and forth

How they each made a small motion

Eating the sand

Yet each individual was swallowed up

Quickly forgotten and forced back into the mass

I turned toward the moon

So close to us

Rising in a fog

Appearing as though the devil cursed it

She gazed back

At the three of us

There, trying to escape.

August 2, 2007

Knowing Yourself

She was there with me

Hopefully comfortable

Just watching TV

The movie broke

My life’s a joke

That glass on the floor

Is more than ever cracked up to be

She was there with me

Hopefully watching

As I played my future

The game is done

But its always fun

And that window in the wall

Is more than ever cracked up to be

So hold on to me tighter

I know you’re a fighter

And I feel the pain when you cry

So smile longer

Take the second to ponder

The consequence of knowing yourself

She was there with me

Hopelessly wonderful

Just there with me

On broken couch springs

The moment was magical

And her thoughts so tragical

I wish I could set her free

July 29, 2007

Impossible

Nature appeals to all senses

To breathe it in

And live it

With a conversation of all the negative

She

Left me there

In those woods

My heart remains there forever

To place such a spin on the axis

My world

And surrounded me again

The impossible was,

For that split second

When the impossible was us

When my impossible was Her

July 24, 2007

Dream

I had a dream about your death

And on the day of the revolution

When I missed you so much

When your hat sank to the bottom of that river,

with its ever building current

After all you were put through

All that failure after so little success

That smile that I had never seen for so long

The dream I had while I was gone

To wake up in a sweat, but not able to yell

Seeing the light of life leave your eyes

All why I jumped as well

So ready to save you

I watched her walk her walk away

I was ready to break

She didn’t know anything of this

That was my future

As I turned putting my mind back into the game

All after that night of screaming

All after the night of pain subsided

How my mind is tortured now

Confronted with a goal and a dream

Combining

Rolling together

Little steps mean little decisions

July 19, 2007